What To Do Instead Of Chasing Him
Tiptoe on the edge of total acceptance and total denial and realize that maybe this is what it means to let go.
By Molly Burford
Instead of chasing him, put on Modest Mouse and think about all the ways you’ve let yourself down lately. Breathe along to the rhythm of “The World At Large” as you promise yourself for the 15th time that you’re finally done getting wrapped up in someone who doesn’t want you, and know you mean it this time. Feel free and heavy all at once.
Apologize to him, to yourself, to the wind. Have dreams where you cannot speak. Let yesterday stay where it is, lean into tomorrow, and breathe. Tiptoe on the edge of total acceptance and total denial and realize that maybe this is what it means to let go.
Realize that the further you push your feelings down, the deeper they become planted in your veins. Understand this very well because that is what has happened here. Finally allow all of those emotions and wishes and disappointments to grow. Feel everything you’ve sent away, and feel it deeply.
Recover on your own. Reclaim your pride. Come home to yourself. Miss him but don’t see him. Know you still love him but do not chase him. Be too proud to delete his number but continue to draft texts you’ll…
