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What Does She Have That I Didn’t?
By Nicole Tarkoff
I sometimes wonder what she has that I didn’t.
Does she lead a more interesting life? Drive a cooler car and make a larger salary. Does she dress in name-brand clothing and wear shinier jewelry? Lather her lips in designer gloss and powder her face with a shade of rosier blush. Does she care about all the things I never did?
Does she speak with words that I’m not smart enough to understand? Graduate from a fancier college with a fancier degree. Does she read books about topics that I never found interesting? Does she initiate the kinds of conversations I never would?
Does she have curves in all the places that I don’t? Have poutier lips and plumper cheeks. Does she have a tinier nose and more sculpted brow? Does her appearance look all the ways mine never did?
Does she laugh at all of your jokes? Agree with all of your opinions. Never start meaningless arguments that have no ending. Does she ever do anything wrong? Does she think you’re always right?
Does she cater to your every need? Worry about your happiness more than she does her own. Does she ever complain about her terrible day or the stress she has at work? Ever just feel sad for no apparent reason and have no idea why. Does she pretend to always be okay? Hide her negative feelings so…
